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Nothing much happened today but I'm extremely upset right now.

I already planned everything for my further studies even more than that like my life for the next 10 years. I want to learn French in France for 7 to 8 months starts from January next year as the university enrollment in UK is on September. Then, start my university life on September and enrolled in the Accounting and Finance course. About 3 to 4 years, I'll finish my university, and back to Malaysia to work, hopefully is employed by the big 4 companies and take whatever qualifications for accountant or even auditor. I really hope I can do those stuffs in France, I know it must be difficult to be done but I'll just try to search for the solution first. However, these are what I thought.

My father said, yes, he allows me to study in France until I'm graduated in the university in France. Oh my gosh! What?! That means I got to finish my university course with French? That's seriously a mission impossible! How is it going to be true? Never ever! I can't make it! I can't even understand when teachers explain in English! Anyone, please kill me!

Then, one of my brothers said, wait, I don't think he was telling me, that is a warning to me, like discouraging me to choose this course and to go UK. I really don't know what is his matter! Next, my mother, she said, you should go Australia if you want to study Accounting. Why? Her reason was, Australia is the best for studying Accounting, your accountant uncle and aunt graduated from there. For me, that is such a nonsense! Ridiculous!

I really worry that I'll make a wrong decision. If I didn't do as what my mother and brother said, I'm sure they will start blaming me and say why don't I listen to their advice, if something gets wrong in the future. But, who knows what will happen if I do what they said, maybe even worse? They would never know! So, I'll just choose to ignore them, but this is really annoying me. On the other hand, I think I got to try very hard to persuade my father and let him know that his way would never work, as I know my own capability. Fortunately, my sister and my another brother are supportive, hope they could give me a hand in convincing my father.

End of this topic and begin with another new topic. Let's talk about me, Lim Weining.

Firstly, I think there is something wrong with me. I'm stubborn, selfish, lazy, ugly, impatient, bad-tempered, noisy, rude, irrational, moody................................ I seriously can't find a positive face of me. I don't know what to do now!! Could I just have a visit to the psychologist please...........