I'm tired.

It's almost 4 years.

I'm tired with this stupid matter.

I don't want to know anything about that but I just can't escape from knowing it.

I know the way I think would give a change to my life.

So, I'm transforming now.

Just accept the fact.

It won't give any changes even if I die,

what I'll get are only their regrets, which is not wanted.

Life is not a video clip, it couldn't be edited.

I'm very thankful that my siblings are all back in Malaysia.

Somehow, I feel sorry to make them involve in this matter,

and I, alone, am going to escape from everything.

It's suffering, it's enough for me.

It's time to have my own new peaceful life.

Next year, 2012, I'll say goodbye to Malaysia.

I hope I won't be back again, but I can't.

I just can't let go everything.

Looking forward to that time.